I have a “day off” today.
Well, actually it’s a “morning off”.
And by that, I mean I have 21 things on my to do list that would be great to get done while I’m child-free. In my first hour, I’ve made and drunk 2 cups of coffee, paid bills, ordered some more Jamberry nail wraps, fb chatted with a friend, looked on Gumtree for a new induction cooktop, and spoken to the bank about our renovation loan. Only 2 of those things were on my to do list, but it’s a start!
I have so many blog posts floating around in my head at the moment, but nothing has made it to the blog. Sorry about that. I’ve got a zillion photos and stories to share, but I’m just enjoying having those moments with my family. I know. So selfish.
I’ve definitely had a change in mindset lately about my place in this crazy world. I was getting to the point where I was resenting the monotony of being a stay at home mum, but I’ve decided to embrace it more, and am finding myself less bogged down in the daily grind. I’m allowed to be fun and not cranky and not always looking for things to tidy or clean or wash. I’m allowed to say “stuff it” and sit down and play instead of fussing about and feeling bad about having an untidy house.
Since my existential crisis back in 2013, I’ve had a bit of a cloud over my head. I’ve been trying to figure out what life is all about; what’s my purpose? What’s the point? Why bother doing the same thing day after day, week after week etc etc. And I’m not saying that I’ve figured out the meaning of life or anything, but I’ve found more meaning in my own life. And I finally realise that I don’t have to answer all of those questions, as trying to find the answers leads me to a place of hopelessness and disinterest which is neither fun nor helpful for those around me. I’m just feeling lighter than I have for a while and even though I know those questions will always be in the back of my mind, it’s okay if they are left unanswered for now.
Life is good up here, and I hope you find something lovely in your day that puts a smile on your face. Like these crazy cats 🙂